My Goals....

Well my fitness trainer (Chrissy) had all of us write down what our goals were and here are mine:

1.  Fit into my size 10 cute white summer dress (I can zip it up now but it's hard to breathe and I have back fat).

2.  Look and FEEL good in a two piece (or ANY bathing suit).

3.  Fit better in my clothes and hopefully a few pre-pregnancy bottoms.

4.  Do either 5K or 10K at the 10Kan run (if I'm not pregnant)

5.  Feel good AND attractive about myself - weight was ALWAYS an issue, even when I was A LOT skinnier and in good shape.

6.  Go down a pant size.

7.  Have people surprised I'm a mom.

8.  Be hit on again - I lost it all when I got pregnant the first time and I don't think my husband even found me attractive and it's hard today to think he does.

Well word for word that's what I handed in.  I think it's good to post them, a constant reminder.  I'm focused and will be focused for awhile I hope....LOL  We'll see I guess.  

My Selfishness

Well pretty much since the miscarriage I have decided I'm going to focus a lot more on myself. I'm going to be selfish. Pretty much I'm going to the gym all the time, I've lost three pounds so far, I've been changing my eating habits and I've been tanning. I just got my hair done again and I'm looking forward to taking time to myself everyday. I definitely enjoy it, there's nothing more then that. I still want to lose twenty to thirty more pounds. I am also halfway out of the military. I've been released from ROTC and my unit is working on discharging me as we speak. I have made several goals for myself, my personal trainer at the gym wanted all of us to and at one point or another I'll post them, but not today. I also have written a story, true story, and at some point after much revision I'll post that too. But pretty much I'm focusing more on myself and I love it. I have been going to the gym almost every day (except Sunday) and doing whatever it is during the day to make myself feel good. I want to look rockin' this summer and it makes me wonder if I really want to start trying for our other baby in June or wait just a little longer, not much longer though.

Of course Bradley is still my little angel and he's growing in leaps and bounds. Currently he still pulls himself up everywhere and scoots to where he needs to while holding onto something, like the coffee table or couch. He also crawls like a big boy now and before I know it he'll be walking. He says, "Dad," "Dadda," "Mom," and "Mama," plus "Hi," but of course he doesn't know what he's really saying. Right now he prefers mommy over daddy and crawls to me, pulls on my pant leg when crying, will pull himself up my pant leg and just want to be held or played with. I'm so lucky to have a little angel like him and he truly is my little angel.

Chris is doing well, he has been studying a lot. I'm VERY proud of him. He now says he's hit his stride in school. I am very proud of him and very lucky to be his wife. I couldn't ask for a more patient husband then him and even though he drives me crazy sometimes in the middle of all of it he makes me laugh. I love him very much and wouldn't want any other husband.

Accomplished

If anyone knows me, I'm definitely a list person. Normally I don't get the list finished, maybe half if I'm lucky. Today I actually made a list of ten things and got them all done today!

1. Laundry - I started and finished all the laundry in one day! I actually am caught up on all of it and I have no clue what to do with myself!

2. Take trash out - Chris forgot to this morning so I did and it definitely made the kitchen a lot cleaner, not to mention I lost Leo in the whole process of it all.

3. Pick up living room - with an infant, one year old dog and ten week old kitten, this could be a challenge but while they were either outside (dog and cat only of course) and Bradley was sleeping, I actually accomplished it.

4. Dust downstairs - While Bradley was sleeping

5. Windex downstairs - Again while Bradley was sleeping

6. Vacuum downstairs - He slept through this one too.

7. Put dishes away - done.

8. Directions for Chris - I was supposed to be at the gym for an hour workout session today, so I pre-made dinner. I left directions for Chris how to finish cooking the rest of it, which was putting it in the oven.

9. Put clothes away - Just finished

10. Mail coupon list - sounds little but it would have sat on my counter forever if I hadn't done something about it.

Turns out I did have the time and motivation to go to the gym, trust me it hurts my biceps and triceps to even type this. Who knew those muscles were used in typing as well. Not only did I accomplish all of that, but I am writing a blog, played a lot with Bradley today, read him a book, until he started eating the pages, PLUS had my dad over for a visit earlier. It was great! Tomorrow it looks like it's going to be a busy day as well. I think I'll read for awhile.....crazy!