Back in March of this year I was on my way to visit some friends for a girls night out/surprise baby shower. Needless to say I never made it. My vehicle was hit by a car who was speeding, lost control of the vehicle and hit the back left side of my Escape causing me to roll it on a two lane highway (that's two lanes going in the same direction...then a median and two other lanes in the opposite direction). I ended up in his lane.
I couldn't even tell you if I was facing the correct direction or not. My vehicle was upside down and I crawled out of it. It was like a movie how all the noises were in the background and I felt alone, there was nothing left but my thoughts.
Since the accident, I have had a minimum of two doctors appointments a week. I am still in pain and I have an extremely hard time driving. I find myself screaming when vehicles are coming near me at times, when vehicles are coming to or near a stop on side streets (that seems to be the worst right now). I have nightmares.
This accident has effected everything in my life from sex to finances to me not being able to play with my children like I would like to. It's painful to do laundry, hold a phone to my ear, drive (physically, mentally and emotionally), I've had running and exercise (other then walking and maybe a recumbant bike) taken away from me. I just want my life back.
Recently I found the following picture from a news station of my vehicle and apparently there was footage of the aftermath of the accident. I had no clue there was a camera crew there until the weekend before last. I imagine it's when I was whisked into the ambulance.
I do believe all things happen for a reason. I'm know I'm lucky to be alive and it really angers me when people tell me that but I hold it in and smile. I am grateful I am alive and I have my family. My kids and husband mean the world to me. I'm still waiting on the reason why this happened to me, but I'm grateful it wasn't someone else who is hurt and dealing with these issues because they are horrible.
I know Heavenly Father watches over me and I am so grateful. I couldn't imagine life without my faith in Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ and the Gift of the Holy Ghost.
